some thoughts

Finally the semester is done, and now its only 2 more weeks of dog work before the holidays and home.

Finally finished up my anthro essay last night, didn't really do a good job of it but I guess my mentality the whole time while completing it was to just get it done and over with. As I wrote my paper I began to realise how little insight I have into anthropology at all, I mean so far 2/3 anthro courses I have taken since year 1 semester 1 I have enjoyed thoroughly, however I definitely lack any sort of anthropological thinking what so ever, need to work on that. I need to get smart, and I've been saying that for the longest time but really, it's about time I had more insight into anything at all. Maybe... I don't know...I mean my thinking in the last year and a half has definitely gone through some changes, no doubt influenced by my program choice... going from this hopeful and optimistic person thinking that a co-op term could change the world, and becoming this doubtful, and almost cynical (was there at one point), wary asshole who nitpicks at all the optimism that people have now that I used to have. And you know what, I guess to some point this slight adjustment in views was only a natural reaction to the kind of people who seem to flourish in the field my program is geared toward, the person who is so open and just so damn good, but who turn out with extremely judgmental eyes to those who don't have the time or prestige or privilege to share the same views. You know, to be standing from the top of a hill where you can look down at the world and say this is wrong or that is wrong, you have to be able to climb to the top first, and for some this is harder than for others, and I guess I feel like sometimes people forget this. Or they don't and then try with all their might to help people get up there, when maybe the people they are trying to "save" are perfectly content with their lives. Shit, looking at it in that view, it's just like colonialism where priests would try and convert every person and mushroom in their view. Hah, fancy that.

Anyway, back to getting smart... I feel like I need some new thoughts to zoom in my head, something to think about. Maybe I should read a thousand books to become well versed in anthropology, christmas present anyone? No! I would rather some tea. Well not unless it was a damn good book! Ahhh I don't know, maybe that long flight back home will give me some time to work on my wisdom, or on some movies... hmm... we shall see.